I cannot truly explain this songs true meaning. I can only explain what the song means to me. Harsh memories are hard to dispose of. I feel this song describes the difficulties in ridding ones self of a gloomy past in a metaphorical rendition. "Feels a bit like falling in love."
No longer numb, my mind is clear and my intentions obvious.
Woke

I had to learn how to smile on my own. My past permits many reasons to not smile, but at the same time I do have many reasons to do so as well. I do not want to show the world my pain so I show them how I smile. I am not lying to others with my false smile. I am only lying to myself because I have to. Pretending is an art that's second nature with me. I must portray happiness in order to be successful. Beyond necessity, there really is so much to smile about.

To know that a better version of yourself exists is a miserable disposition. I just want to be so much. I dream of a self-actualized version of myself although fear and sorrow is all that I know. To move beyond this point would set me free of what I have become. I need to free myself, from myself. My mind is dwindling away from my old mind day by day. I cannot wait to meet myself.